If Only I Could

 One of my professors said once he'd like to write that one article that is a home run.  Everyone wants that one post or a blog post that just takes off.  Sometimes I search for that one special thought that is a one-of-kind thought like Einstein's formula.  But I've learned that if a thought is too far out there, it might be best to keep it to one's self.   I have a lot of thoughts, but almost all of them I keep to myself.  

I have been about as religious as I want to get here.  But at least I've avoided politics.  I allow for beliefs of all kinds, but a deep theological insight won't fly here.  I comment on life as much as I can here. I have a lot of "way out there" thoughts, but I won't even share those with my wife.  There are some things one won't share with a therapist.  I have deep theological/philosophical thoughts that aren't taught in conservative colleges or seminaries.  

I've taken a risk to share a few here, but really, if one wants to know my anxieties, they are caused by what I observe in the world.  I could share my anxieties, but I don't.  I could be specific, but I would rather just say this.  I am too individualistic preferring not to be a leader.  But explaining this would be too difficult.  

I deal with the world by smoking my pipe.  My pipe is a part of my Spirituality.  But the why of that I keep to myself.  When I first began smoking my pipe on our deck at our NY home I felt as though I was beginning all over again.  But now I say I have 50 years of pipe smoking experience.  It has all come back to me now.  But without my pipes I fear my anxieties could get the best of me.

I've written about alcohol here, but i had to learn to be very careful with alcohol.  I cant smoke my pipe too much, but alcohol could get ahold of me.  But really my pipe is my relaxation of choice.  I have my pipes, but really, what goes into them is the real pleasure, but there is no tobacco i dont like.  I smoke Virginia based tobaccos very carefully.  Virginias have a high nicotine content that can upset my stomach.  One example is Autumn Evening that must be smoked slowly.  

I' learned more about tobacco these past few years than I learned before.  Taking time with a pipe is learned.  In fact, everything about smoking a pipe is learned.  Pipe smoking is never rushed.  If you dont have the extra twenty minutes to an hour to enjoy a pipe then dont do it.  A pipe is to be savored like a fine whiskey or a glass of Cabernet.  That time spent relaxing with a pipe is time well spent.  The anxieties of the world just seem to drift away.  

I figure I'll never have that deep thought I can share.  But a pipe gives me time to ponder my thoughts.  Everyone needs time for relaxation no matter what one does.   Due to circumstances beyond my control, I'll smoke my pipe at my son's house later this afternoon.  It will be my Czech Jirsa pipe with my Old Professor.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Dave