Where's the Fire?

I had two posts ready for today and decided on this one.  Most of us have had a fire in our bellies for something. I've never lost mine.  In today's world it's a different fire.  Probably different from most.  My fire is simply for life and living.  I have this blog, which if only read by a few, is still a fire.  I have had a love for writing for as long I can remember.  Ministry catered to that fire, but being a minister just wasn't in me, which can explain why I left the Church and ANY religion.  Being in a church wasn't my desire.  It had nothing to do with God or belief. It was and is simply people.  Life is relational and I often feet I don't relate.

Maybe part of that is a fairly high IQ, where some excel, and some of us don't.  Life is designed for the average.  It is said that Ronald Regan's IQ was around 104 and Bob Dylan's IQ is around 106.  I don't know my IQ, but I've been told it is quite high.  It might be like that of Einstein who is said to have an IQ of over 200, but I doubt that.  Still Einstein was unusual.  And many physicists and engineers have high IQs.  But success is often measured by grades, when in fact I often found studies and classes boring.  

A high IQ promises nothing in life if one is an underachieving introvert forced into being an extrovert.  Ministers are most often extroverts by the very nature of their work.  But still it takes a fire in the belly to find purpose and meaning in life.  Perhaps the most famous introverted writer was J. D. Salinger, who after achieving great success with Catcher in the Rye, probably became the most famous of introverts, choosing a life of quiet solitude.  I know how to act like an extrovert, but acting is all it is.  Inside I often just want to hide from a world in which I cannot afford to hide.

But if there are role models for me, they are few and far between.  So, in a way, I've become my own role model asking myself where my fire is.  I do this blog, because I don't have high expectations for it.  And if not for my wife, I, more than likely, would have little, if any social life.  I would choose to go through life anonymously, if I could.  Ì couldn't survive in this world without family.  But, while I could blame my life for a high IQ and the unwillingness to be extroverted, I live and choose to live.

I have a Divine purpose for living, and I have refused to share this with most anyone.  It is the only reason why I live.  Because those few are my reason for being alive.  Life is simply a desire to make Human Life a reason why everyone lives.  But some fail, which is something I will NOT do. If failure was my worry, I would otherwise, have many worries.  But living in and of itself is success in spite of all odds.  Life is ALWAYS choosing to live and let live.

This is my message to everyone.  Living in today's world is success, regardless of all other failures.  I am not Divine, because if I were that, I would get out of this world in an instant.  What motivates me is to live and seek a life of love and Peace, even if all I do is love and having Peace with myself, regardless.  And that regardless is why I live.  It's why anyone would choose life over death.

 The high today will be in the upper 70's.  This morning it is overcast, but no rain is expected.  I'm smoking my Nording Number 2 with my Prince Albert, which I plan to review in a couple of days.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Dave