Like a Monk?

 My wife commented this morning that I'm like a kind of a monk.  I've been told that I am sort of monk-ish in my lifestyle.  I probably am.  I've given thought to how I should dress even once having ordered a monk outfit with the monk hair to go with it and a cross I could wear around my neck.  I wore the outfit for about an hour and decided that wasn't me, but maybe the image of a monk suits me best.

My kind of Spirituality suits me best.  After my experience with the Divine I withdrew.  I became very inward and withdrawn.  That experience is stull an obsession.  No doubt.  It's been my obsession for thirty years.  We talked briefly about my thoughts and I told her that I feel my thoughts CAN change the world.  I want to ponder about the kind of world I want to live in.  I DO think I influence tomorrow with what I do today.

I AM a kind of influencer, but in a Spiritual way.  I actually believe I can influence my Spirit Guides.  But like my experience with the Divine, I have no proof of the experience or what was said in that experience.  Only a few know the details.  But over the course of thirty years I have never once forgotten.  It is MY own obsession.  But I believe it to be a healthy obsession.  My obsession CAN change the world and I believe for the better.  

Most of these thoughts I keep to myself and have for the most part of the last thirty years.  I have let a few into my world.  But I'm thinking instead of being observed as being different, I'd rather blend in.  I'm not sure I want to dress differently in a monk's robe or some Spiritually identifying outfit.  I've never felt comfortable wearing a suit and tie.  That just wasn't me.  I've always felt most comfortable in sweat pants and a sweatshirt.  These seem to suit me the best.

These days, except for a Rolex watch and designer shoes, some CEO's dress no differently from the oi poloi.  I might feel most comfortable in shorts and a tropical shirt when I am out shopping with my wife.  And now with my short hair I don't look like I have an Einstein hair do.  I DO look like a Florida man, as my wife suggested.  I wear a forty dollar watch that I'll keep until it quits.  I might replace the battery once it dies or look for another forty dollar watch.  

But there is nothing about me that would indicate I'm nothing more than the oi poloi.  If there is one thing about me that might stand out if people knew is that I like to be alone a lot.  Maybe too much in the thinking of some, but my being alone a lot might be the only thing that separates me from most.  

And some might wonder why I smoke a pipe even still after all these years and especially after a heart attack.  A pipe has become part of my Spirituality after all these years.  I meditate best while smoking a pipe.  It's one of my hobbies.  And pipe smoking is now a hobby.  One can't just go out most anywhere and smoke a pipe.  It's now done in the privacy of one's home or abode.  A pipe is my tool for meditation.  It replaces a robe or anything I might do to be different.  So, this is my thinking about being a monk this morning.  

I'm smoking my Peterson Sherlock Holmes pipe this morning with some Captain Black Cherry whike drinking a cup of hot black Gautamalan coffee.  I thank you for your time this morning and Peace to each one of you.

Dave