About Finding Pearls

 I really don't care about beliefs or even whether one believes.  What matters most to me is how one values Human Life.  It all comes down to this.  I've spent a big part of the past 30 years in much solitude, simply because I needed the time.  I've had a lot of garbage to sort through in order to find the pearls of wisdom I would need later on.  But I had no idea the "later on" would be 30 years.  But it seems God wanted me quiet for most of that time.

I often wondered why but God had to teach me patience.  I had a lot of learning to do.  And it was all done in a lot of solitude.  But I'm beginning to understand why.  Others might not understand, but I do.  And really, as long as I do, what others now think doesn't matter.  I did what I had to do.  The Spirit Guides made sure they would do what was needed of them.  But I'm thinking that now I have one basic need that I feel I must do.

I feel a need to be around people more and not less.  Before the fewer people in my life the more I had time to sift through the garbage of my life to find the pearls.  And one by one I began collecting them until I felt I had enough.  I feel now I have enough.  Maybe to some I'm just an old man, but in MY thinking I don't really see my age.  

I will admit that my two brushes with death in the past fifteen years took a lot oit of me, but those brushes just gave me more pearls.  I feel I now have all the pearls I need.  Oh, sure there are things I could have done differently, but this isn't my scheduling.  If I had done it my own way, my life would have been different, but not for the best.  I did it to be the best I could be.  I haven't arrived yet as there are more pearls to find, but now I feel I have enough to simply be around people more.

That is now my need.  I need to be around people more and not less.  I've completed His work and not really mine.  If it were mine I would have failed.  This is how I see it.  But the stresses took its toll and I've had to learn how to manage the stresses.  And I'm stull learning as the stresses don't go away.  But I understand that while people can cause stresses, people can help manage them too.  It takes the right people to do this.  And I've had to learn.

That learning took time.  Some might say too much to my own detriment.  But I'm an optimist saying it's how it had to be.  But it doesn't have to be any longer.  I still need time for myself, but now I can have more time for others.  I learned this in the past two months while in NY.  I'm not perfect by any means and I didn't live the past 30 years being perfect.  I had a lot to learn and I'm still learning because I am human and not divine.  

I need time to smoke my pipe and meditate.  I still need my alone time.  But I now have a need to be around people more and not less.  I'll take it one step at a time.  This is how God wants me to do it.  Everything in the past 30 years have been by incremental steps.  But it wasn't my way.  I would have done it differently, if even at all.  The world needs to be prepared for the Divine Interventiin that is coming.

maybe i took too much time but it was time I needed.  I am ready to face the world and the challenges ahead, but feel I am now ready to do just this.  I thought I would let you all know.  Everyone needs time to themselves.  I needed more than most.  At least a few of you know why.  So, this morning I'm taking my time with my pipe, which is my Boswell and my tobacco is Chocolate Cavendish.  I'm drinking my coffee, which is Stumptown Homestead Holler Mountain coffee.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Dave