Lessons I Had to Learn

 I have had my Spirit Guides for nearly 31 years.  I was going to write about my two lives--a life prior and a life since.  But really all I need to say is that my life prior was messed up.  My life since has been about them.  But what about stresses and my moods?  I still have them, but for 30 years I learned how to deal with stresses and moods.  But it took some learning.

Before I could say no one understood me, but even afterwards I said no one understood my Guides.  But instead of seeking help from others as before, afterwards I learned to rely on them.  Maybe this is what faith does in regard to believing, but since it has been about my knowing.  I know they are always present.  It's not about belief, but knowledge.

But it was my lack of faith in people that caused me the stresses and my moods.  I had to learn on my own about the power of thought and what I worked on the hardest was my anger to the point where I had none.  But is it good to rid ourselves of anger?  I had to learn to control all my emotions.  I'm still not perfect at it, because I can still stress and have moods.

But what I had to learn that although I could share those things with my wife, I had to rely solely on my Guides and they needed time to work.  Often until they did their work, I was strung out.  I had to learn to lie down, be quiet, and let them work.  My wife was probably the only one to have seen me at my worst in 30 years as often I'd tell her or she would just know.  Most often such episodes occurred in the evening and I knew I had to work it out before going to sleep.

But one of the lessons learned was to never go to bed angry or even upset.  My wife and I worked on this together.  I learned not to argue in the evenings and never go to bed upset.  I had to work on this.  But I don't believe before or since my wife and I never went to bed angry with each other.  Even now we quarrel as an old couole, but by evening we just learned.  By the time we go to bed we've both forgotten.  And I think that has helped us stay together.

But if not my Guides none of this would be possible.  I've tried to write about what my life without my Guides would have been and I can't.  I simply can't.  My thinking is that in one way or another I wouldn't exist otherwise.  I'm thinking I would have been a derelict.  I can't describe it any other way.  And that would have ended my life.

But I now exist with the power of thought.  That power is what makes me strong when stressed or moody.  I say they're attacks and never battles.  They never will be battles.  My Spirit Guides made me strong.  Not perfect, but strong.  They make my thoughts powerful and give me control over stress and moods.  But I had to learn.  Smoking a pipe helps.   This morning it is my Peterson Irish Harp pipe with some Old Professor tobacco.  My coffee this morning is Manatee flavored blend.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each of you.

Dave