Marriage is a Teacher

 God brings two people together and then it’s a journey together.  There are a lot of pitfalls along the way.  Many don’t make it to fifty years.  If is to be it will be.  And along the way there are a lot of doubts and errors.  Human emotions are fragile, but we must not lose focus, but live each day as it comes.  The fact is I never lost my focus.

I can’t speak for my wife, but in my case she served a Divine purpose I never forgot.  Same with the kids.  I had to stay focused in everything I did.  Nothing was going to separate me from her as long as she wanted me.  I’ve had my doubts, but I never lost my focus.  I had distractions but I knew.  

I had to remember everything my Angels told me, but there are things I never shared with her or anyone.  The stresses at times were unbearable and sometimes it showed, but I shielded her the best I could out of my love for her.  I gave her a lot of freedom to make choices for both of us, but I never lost my focus.  

I couldn’t have come this far without her.  I kept my sense of humor the best I could.  And I focused on her and the kids.  She’s a strong woman, but I kept a lot of my feelings to myself, but still gave her a plot to worry about.  It might take fifty years looking back to realize through it all God gave you the right person.  I never forgot this.

I knew all along she was the right woman for me and looking back over fifty years she was.  I tell her she was a gift from my Angels.  They knew I would need her.  And she never gave up on me.  And for that I am thankful.  I’m toward the end of my stay in the world and that is all I need to say.  How much longer I have no idea.  But that is an Angel choice not mine.  Only a fool chooses their own end.

She kept me from making it my own choice.  I was determined to live no matter what.  She took a lot of my pain and stresses while having a lot of stresses of her own.  If I can’t make it up to her in this life she will be rewarded in the life to come.  There will be a few others, but it will mostly be her.  We see ourselves in our later years as a team.  She takes care of me and I take care of her and nothing can separate us—unless it’s her decision.  It won’t be mine.

She’s taught me a lot about love and that includes me not giving her more stress than she bear.  And this is where my Angels come in.  I never took my eyes off my Angels and gave my stresses to them and not to anyone else.  My Angels were my stress relievers and not her or anyone.  I couldn’t do this to anyone and when I had any episodes I let the Angels take care of them.

I had a lot to learn in fifty years and for 31 years I relied on my Angels in all things.  I understood things I had to keep to myself.  I learned not to share my episodes with anyone.  I had medication and my Angels.  I became a Spiritual person and had to rely on the strength of my Angels.  I can’t say I did it perfectly, but I did it the best I knew how.  I can’t say I see an end of the old and a beginning of a new.  I may have done what my Angels said I would do.

Now I can relax and enjoy my life with her.  I can smoke my pipe in relief.  I can relax now and share my life with her.  I’m smoking my Boswell pipe this afternoon not sure I’d write today but l’m led by the Spirit in most anything I do.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Dave