Everything I Do

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 I would never deny my experience with my Angels.  I represent them in everything I do and they are all that I am.  I can’t help this.  It’s who I am.  Maybe since and still I am not quite human.  I get stressed by being around too many people just for this reason.  I simply can’t deny my Angels in all I do and they define all that I am.  I’ve had to learn to deal with it.

Having an understanding wife helps me a lot.  And then sharing with close trusted friends helps a lot.  But there is nothing I can do to change the way I feel.  I know how God will judge the world when the Messiah comes as I have been judged already.  I could go against my Angels and change the course of events, but my Angels and God knew I wouldn’t do this.  

Would I rather not have had the experience?  Without the Angels I doubt seriously I would be alive today.  This blog would not exist.  But instead of being an influencer I change lives one person at a time.  I focus on individuals one at a time.  My Angels made me different and special.  But they can only be evidenced a little at a time.  

If God wants to use me to influence the world He will have to find another way.  I influence only a few at a time.  I don’t believe my Angels were for the masses, but for a few who get to know me.  This matches my quiet personality.  Too much input causes me stress I don’t need or want.  

But God and the Angels knew this about me when they chose me.  I am not a boastful person and a quiet life isn’t about wealth or riches.  It’s more about humility.  I read the Bible with understanding.  And that understanding is unique to myself; not meant to be shared to the masses, but only to a few.  

God has other mouthpieces for spreading His Peace and Love.  My experience was too personal to be shared with many.  If God wants me to reach the masses, He will have to find another way.  Because this is not my goal.  I work on only a few at a time.  Many are called to speak for Him.  The chosen are almost always anonymous.  Only a few know who they are.  It’s because being chosen is very humbling.  I am not deserving.  

I did not summon my Angels and ask for this.  They came to me, which is why I relax with a pipe.  This world could cause my great stress.  But relaxing with a pipe helps keep me focused.  I need my quiet time alone with my pipe.  My pipe this morning is my Nording Angel pipe and my tobacco is Bayou Night.  My coffee this morning is my Peruvian blend.  It’s Sunday and I am listening to Sunday Morning Coffee Album put together by Chip Davis of Mannheim Steamroller.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Papa Chasteen 

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