An Understanding

-

 God and I have an understanding.  I came across a quote that says my soul is a symphony.  I understand the Grace of God about as well as anyone.  If I had anything to worry about in regard to my soul I would be a neurotic mess.  But when I feel I’ve messed up, which is often, I  can forgive myself and just move on.  I have to remember people judge, butI’ve been judged by God already.

I try to forgive as I say God does, but in my humanity I am not perfect.  It helps to have a sense of humor as I know I make Angels laugh a lot.  But I still have to live in this world and many times I just wish the Messiah would come and take me to Heaven.  This world can get me down, but often I say these things must be.  

I certainly am not boasting, but the Angels gave me a voice when they are silent.  I would love to say I represent my Angels in all I do, but I know I don’t.  I’m too human for that.  My Angels didn’t make me perfect—just better.  I just tell God I’m human and can laugh in Satan’s face.  Many times my best still isn’t good enough, but I can’t quit and I grow from every experience in life.  

So, this is my understanding with God.  I do my best and when I fail I simply move on and laugh if I can.  Smoking a pipe helps.  It’s why I do.  I am smoking my Angel pipe this morning because it’s Sunday.  My tobacco is Bayou Morning and my coffee is from Cameron’s.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Papa Chasteen

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

About Good Vs. Evil

-
 My Angels told me Satan wanted to create and God wouldn’t let him, when I asked them if there were physical unions in heaven.  But here on earth creating is good.  God allows us to create all we want, within limits.  But in doing so we do the will of God knowing He is the Giver  of all life.  My Angels didn’t tell me this, but it is my thinking that we have to recognize God is the Giver of ALL life.  This is why every human life is sacred and why only God can take a human life. This is why God will overlook any sin but the taking of Human Life.  This is my theology from my Angels and why it is so important that we control both our hatred and our anger.  This is why there is the taking of human life.  Satan knows this too and why there is evil in this world.  Without righteousness humanity wouldn’t exist. This is why I believe God won’t let the world be destroyed.  There will always be wars and rumors of war, which is why livin...
Read more

Almost

-
 Tomorrow ends the 14th year since my hear attack.  I had the widow-maker and only by the grace of God and a good heart surgeon I survived.  I had never experienced such pain in my life!  I knew I wasn’t going to die but my heart was damaged so much it functions at about 50%.   It was a Saturday and we were going to visit my mom.  The timing couldn’t have been better!  We could have been out on the road.  It was about nine O’clock in the morning and I had to pump up a tire on the car.  The funny thing is I had a BP check in October and it was 120/80 with no signs of anything being wrong.   I was about 30 pounds over weight and I simply was not taking very good care of myself.  I was under some duress during that time, but still no sign of it happening.  My wife questioned as to whether it was a heart attack but I told her to call 911.  I had no doubt what was happening.   The squad came and they confirmed it was a hea...
Read more

A Different Kind of Birthday

-
I might be the only one my age who says I’m fourteen today but I suppose if you were to ask my family I’m in my second childhood so-to-speak.  But yesterday I made a big deal out of my heart attack but today not so much.    It’s not that I fear death—no, I fear pain.  Death doesn’t frighten me in the least.  I have talked with many who have had that kind of heart attack and the women have said it’s worse than child birth.  There really isn’t a pain like it they have said.  If I could go without the pain I’d be in heaven right now.   But if I had to go through that pain to get there I’d rather live.  But a lot has happened in these last fourteen years.  And I’ve been alive to live my life relatively pain free.  My appendicitis wasn’t all that painful but the stomach tube was annoying enough.  But we sold our home and invested in another place in NY and now live with our son here in Florida.   I’m limited in what u do and I ...
Read more