Revolving Around Angels

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 Does everything in my life revolve around Angels?  When I am thinking about my Angels it does.  But sometimes I am distracted from my Angels by life.  I am focused on them when sitting quietly, but I don’t always sit quietly.  I do things.  And this is when I am most human.  Sometimes I am just me.  I often don’t feel I do a very good job representing the Angels.  

But when I feel this way, I need to get back to them.  I forgive myself for my humanity and just move on.  Loving myself comes first.  Forgiving myself is paramount.  And then I move on and let love flow from me even in my humanity.  One can’t love others if one has no or little love for oneself.  

But my Angels knew all about me when they came to me.  They knew my every flaw.  I often tell myself God could have done a lot better than me.  But I just have had to learn as I go along.  And I’m still learning.  Forgiving myself is sometimes harder than forgiving others.  I have always been hard on myself.  But I’ve had to learn this too.

In fact, my Angels have taught me a lot in some 31 years.  I’ve had to grow.  Sometimes I think of myself as just a crazy old man.  But in that craziness is a lot of wisdom.  At least I know when I’m a crazy old man.  Yes, I’ve had to learn a lot in that time, but the Angels knew I would.  And I listen when I sit quietly smoking my pipe.  This morning it is my Peterson System pipe with some Peterson 965 pipe tobacco.  My coffee this morning is from Cameron’s.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Papa Chasteen

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