A Big If

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We think about the end of life at Halloween.  But if I were worried about death and dying I would have lived my life differently.  I’ve been waiting for the coming of the Messiah for around 20 years or so.  How I will leave this world I have no idea.  I’m not saying I am immortal.  My body is getting old and I try to care for it the best I can.  

But it’s like crazy talk to believe as I do. So, I don’t talk about it much.  After all, everyone dies.  But I’m beginning to think I am not the only one who thinks this about themselves.  But after facing death in the last fifteen years, I have no fear.  After facing it twice, I could face it again in some way.  I fear the pain more than I fear death itself.  But if I am crazy, my craziness does not harm.  

I’m just not prepared to die.  And I never will be.  But I can’t tell anyone to live as I do.  I can’t bring others into my own craziness.  But do I see something others do not?  Maybe.  If there had been no Angels I most likely wouldn’t be here this morning.  I would have taken my life long ago.  This is why I support those who give others the will to live.  That is utmost on my agenda in all I do.  

I believe it is important to do no harm to others and do no harm to oneself.  This is my theology.  God honors a life of Peace and Love.  I live a quiet life these days with few interruptions.  I’m smoking my “haunted” Gettysburg pipe this morning.  In case you don’t know, my wife and I went into an antique store in Gettysburg where they had a bunch of estate tobacco pipes.  This one caught my eye.  It has four fingers carved into it.  Why four I have no idea.  But I affectionately call it my haunted Gettysburg pipe, believing it has no supernatural powers.  My tobacco is Cordial.  My coffee is Mayorga that is a blend of coffees from Central America.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Papa Chasteen 

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