What I Don’t know

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 I don’t know how angels do what they do.  They announce themselves with peace and tell us not to be afraid.  This world causes stress for me and I like to be alone a lot.  But it is great to have family here for the holidays. I simply ask my angels to care for my family and do what I am not always capable of doing.  

I’m not a very social person.  I know this about myself.  I am great one.on-one but many more and I’d rather be by myself.  It helps me concentrate on my time alone.  I enjoy having others around but I enjoy my alone time.  I could say my angels made me the way I am.  

My lifestyle has not been favorable about making money in life, but I had to learn how to commune with God and angels.  I can’t explain how I meditate or like being alone a lot, but I could say I had to adapt to this world the best I can.  If I had to change myself I would, but I enjoy my time alone.  

If one can enjoy oneself without fear, one has achieved a sense of Peace.  I interact with others just enough.  My family knows this about me.  I just can’t live life in a vacuum.  I adapt very easily.  There will be a lot of people coming and going throughout the holidays.  I’ll make my presence known and retreat when I can.  

I have often wondered whether I have always been this way.  Angels choose people they know well.  The Angels chose me just the way I am.  I often wish I were able to explain angels better, but angels have no explanation.  My angels told me things only a few know.  I meditate on those things day and night.  

But maybe some might say I’ve meditated enough.  I need to know as much about this world as I can.  It is part of a task my angels said I would perform.  But instead of thinking I have much to do maybe I have already done it.  After 32 years there may not be much more I have to do for my angels.  But one way or another the angels would certainly not want me to stress about it.  I stress as little as possible.

The holidays can give me stress if I allow them to, but in my thinking no matter how I live my life all I do is correct.  I won’t say I am perfect.  Far from it.  The angels know me.  They knew how I would live my life 32 years ago.  They don’t think in terms of right or wrong.  They see the big picture as I try to do too.  

So, I often relax with my pipe and meditate as much as I can.  I’ll get through the holidays and enjoy my time with friends and family.  And I’ll enjoy my time alone as I listen to the laughter and the conversations and simply enjoy having everyone here.  My pipe this morning is my Arcobaleno Blue by Savinelli and my tobacco is We Three Kings by Cornell and Diehl.  My coffee is Mayorga.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Dave

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