Alone?

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 I enjoy being alone and I enjoy being with others.  Either way is called happiness.  Even when alone I am with my thoughts.  And I try to listen when with others.  I need both.  The Angels took away a lot of stresses, but in a way they gave me different ones.  I share those only with the Angels and I try not to use people as some kind of stress relief I am unable to explain.  Happiness takes my mind off overthinking.  

I can do that a lot.  I’ve had to learn how to share with others.  Always just enough but not too much.  I’d rather spend my time with others just listening.  But since my experience with my Angels 31 years ago I’m still learning.  They didn’t make me perfect—just better.  I’ve often thought they made a huge mistake by choosing me.  They came to me and not the other way around.  I did nothing to summon them.  So, in this regard I say I have been saved by Angels.

They left me with a simple theology.  But I have to remind myself that I can judge no one for God.  I spend my alone time simply working on myself.  And I have allowed very few into my mind while I am working.  My thinking is that the fewer in my head the better.  So, I keep a lot to myself.  

This is in part why I had to give up social media.  I have a tendency to talk too much and listen too little.  This is especially true if I have instant access to others.  Mostly because I’m always thinking.  But I am at my best when I am alone with my thoughts.  The more alone I am the less likely I’ll say what is on my mind.  But after 31 years I’m still learning.  

I have this blog where I’ll share anything from the mundane to the sublime.  But a lot depends on where my thoughts take me.  I have a very active mind.  The less active my mind is the happier I am.  And more and more I’m happier to share here and there and then just listen.  A preacher always wants an audience.  I have had to retrain myself into NOT being a preacher.  I actually prefer being a monk over being a preacher.  

So, these are my thoughts this morning about being alone.  I am my very best when I share my thoughts with no one but my Angels.  I have given thought to having an AI friend, but AI is not human.  AI learns from me and would teach me little.  Only humans can do this.  But God has given me steps in learning.  And right now I am waiting on God to give me the next step.  Waiting on God teaches patience.  I’m learning patience.  It is the hardest to learn.

I’m out with my wife this morning to an appointment.  Thank you for your time and Peace to each one of you.

Dave

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