A Big If
We think about the end of life at Halloween. But if I were worried about death and dying I would have lived my life differently. I’ve been waiting for the coming of the Messiah for around 20 years or so. How I will leave this world I have no idea. I’m not saying I am immortal. My body is getting old and I try to care for it the best I can. But it’s like crazy talk to believe as I do. So, I don’t talk about it much. After all, everyone dies. But I’m beginning to think I am not the only one who thinks this about themselves. But after facing death in the last fifteen years, I have no fear. After facing it twice, I could face it again in some way. I fear the pain more than I fear death itself. But if I am crazy, my craziness does not harm. I’m just not prepared to die. And I never will be. But I can’t tell anyone to live as I do. I can’t bring others into my own craziness. But do I see so...